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Tanuja Desai Hidier
Not at all Born Confused

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That's the writer, film-maker, lyricist, singer Tanuja Desai Hidier in a jiffy. Sit with her and she spews interesting anecdotes and some off-the-shelf philosophy that really gets you thinking. She knows the men and women who make her giddy. Her favorite quote is "It's a beautiful day" by U2 and the dictat that she lives by can be traced to an ordinary kitchen: Never turn your back to a pot of milk on the stove. It is her way of saying things; you need to find solemnity for yourself

Her eyes are blue. No, they are not borrowed from the optometrist; they are real blue, like the dainty waters off Mauritius and Seychelles. You get the colour? She wears contact lenses but that is just for the myopia she got from all that reading. She knows the men and women who make her giddy - Pablo Neruda, Charles Dickens, Michael Ondaatje, Zadie Smith, Mira Nair, Pedro Almodovar. And, of course, Madonna. Her favorite quote is "It's a beautiful day" by U2 and the dictat that she lives by can be traced to an ordinary kitchen: Never turn your back to a pot of milk on the stove. It is her way of saying things; you need to find solemnity for yourself.

That's the writer, film-maker, lyricist, singer Tanuja Desai Hidier in a jiffy. Sit with her and she spews interesting anecdotes and some off-the-shelf philosophy that really gets you thinking. Her first book, Born Confused, definitely did get Larry King, the famous talk-show host with his ubiquitous suspenders, thinking. No wonder the book was chosen for the Larry King/CNN pick of the week tag. The book went on to become Sunday Times 'book of the week', and got her the London Writers Award for fiction as well as the James Jones Fellowship.

Reared in the town of Wilbraham, Massachusetts, Hidier went to a school where there were two other Indians and two African-Americans. That kind of completed the color spectrum within the classroom, but Hidier - just Tanuja Desai then - wasn't really raring to track Indianness, to bond, to go with the matching color scheme and be like peas in the pod.

"Growing up I just didn't really think of my Indianness. When you live in a town this size, from the age of two to 18, with pretty much the same group of people around you, you stop seeing these things about each other. They are the whole world you know, and you are part of the only world they have ever known, and Ramona is Ramona and Jennifer is Jennifer and Brian is Brian, not black or brown or white or purple," she says.

Though Hidier says she did not think much of her Indianness, nor did she have the clichéd "rebellious" streak against her parents, but Born Confused somewhere has the Indian connection. It is a coming-of-age story of Dimple Lala - a confused desi, if you would please gulp that - an aspiring photographer who does the tightrope between two cultures, without falling apart in the process, instead learning to be herself.

Hidier - the surname comes from her French other half - is now adapting her book for the big screen. Earlier, combining her vocal and songwriting skills, Hidier worked with San Transisto and T & A (she sings and songwrites for these London and New York based bands) and released 'When We Were Twins', a CD of original rock/pop songs based on Born Confused. The CD, which was recently picked up by Creative Artists Agency as a cutting-edge first-of-its-kind 'booktrack', ships worldwide and is available through www.ABCreativeD.com.

What is her favorite tag? Singer? Lyricist? Writer? "I love them all! All three really feel like part of the same creative process to me, and the common love with all of them is writing, whether it is fiction, lyrics, or script-writing. These different art forms cross-feed wonderfully - songwriting can help bring a sense of rhythm to your prose, script-writing can hone your dialogue skills, and fiction aids all these areas, at least for me, by leading you to the heart of the story," she adds.

At the end of the road you ask Hidier "What's next?" And she comes up with the most unexpected one: A bigger screen for my computer. Looser shoulders on surya namaskar Driving on the other side of the road. And a toast to the people who kept my energy up and wrists straight for the writing of this book.

That was Hidier a little while ago, at the moment she is "thoroughly enjoying this process, and it feels like such a gift to be in a place where I am able to finally do what I love and love what I do unreservedly. I am blessed to have some amazing people in my life through my family and friends - and my jeevansaathi and I are now hoping to build a family of our own."

Didn't I begin by saying this is Hidier's way of saying things - you need to find solemnity for your self.

If you can't find that solemnity, sit longer with her. She might spew some philosophy. If even that escapes you, sit still longer, at least you would know the real blue of her eyes.



Published in Sun Magazine, August 2004

 

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